Vertigo By Guest Writer Tara Lewis
Vertigo is the sensation that you, or the environment around you, is moving or spinning. It is March 26, 2021; I think that is something we are all feeling. The world has felt “off” for well over a year now, maybe even longer for some people. If only we could just get back to normal; but what is normal? If it were to return, would we even recognize it? So many things have changed in the past year.
I don’t leave home without a face mask. I have them in solid colors, glitzy designs and even ones with messages.
Our personal bubbles have increased to 6 feet, which is rather somber when you think about it. When a person is buried, they are 6 feet below the ground. In a way, this distance feels like a death of sorts. I don’t consider myself to be a social person but the best week I have had was when we were allowed to start meeting in person with our grade level content area teachers. It felt so good to just be in the same room, even though we were spread out. I long for that connection again.
The cancelled activities, events, festivals. I long to go do something, which feels weird to say. I would describe myself as a homebody but this is a bit extreme. I need to experience the world. I think twice about going out to eat at a buffet. When my family recently got away for the weekend, we could only use the hotel pool for one hour the entire weekend. The hotel kitchen, which is known for their phenomenal made to order breakfast, was empty.
A year ago, officials said if we could all just stay home for a month, until the end of April, we could beat this pandemic and life could return to normal. April 30th came and went. Then it was summer because who could imagine a summer without pools being open or summer camps taking place? It happened. Then, school started and we all wondered how long it would be before we returned to a virtual setting, the dreaded e-learning. Fortunately, because of such strong safety measures, we were able to stay in school. Yet sporting events were so limited. Then, there was the eternal hope that a new year brings
Even though we knew better, we were wishing that January 1st would magically make everything better. It didn’t. Then we entered into spring.
A storm just passed through. Hard rain, bright lightning and the kind of thunder that wakes you up. I know it is dark out right now so there won’t be a rainbow. I am so ready for one, the glimmer of light that better things are on the way. I want to feel grounded, confident that my life will not be uprooted and torn to shreds. I am ready for the vertigo to pass. I have heard that drinking water will help. Water usually helps most things. After the rain we have had, I am ready for better times. I want the rainbow, the hope, the happiness and joy that comes with knowing the storm has passed. I am aware that storms sometimes happen to make our roots take hold. My roots are strong. I will not be moved.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Licensed Independent Mental Health Practitioner
Licensed Professional Counselor
Advanced Clinical HypnoTherapist
- Deb England began working part-time for Wholeness Healing Center in September 2004 and began full-time in May 2005. Deb practices primarily in the Broken Bow office and one day a week in the Grand Island office. Previously she had completed her practicum and internship at Morning Star Alliance, working in the Broken Bow and Grand Island offices.
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